The Northwest Voice

I have kept the Northwest Voice up to date with my fight with cancer.  I have very troubling news to report.

Barbara Legg, my wife and true love of my life left me at the end of my fight with cancer.  I do not have any idea as to why she would do this.  We were a match made in heaven but she up and ran one day giving no explanation or reason.  I have no reason to believe she was unfaithful and the whole situation has me puzzled.

I knew cancer would either make a marriage stronger or weaker but I believed our love for one another would overcome any challenge it faced.  How wrong I was.  Within 4 days of leaving she filed for divorce.  She has not returned a single call and this all happened on August 28.  I am wondering if fighting cancer was really worth losing the love of my life over.  I cannot go on without her, but I must try.

I am fairly good at giving advice but since I am emotionally attached I do not have a single answer for any of my questions.  Would I be foolish to try to reconcile with her and try to work all out and have a relationship with her?  I am a very good and loving person and ask myself why did I deserve this.  People have told me I am crazy for wanting her back, that she is selfish, coldhearted and cruel.  People who do not know her have told me this. But this very moment I would forgive and forget just to have her back in my arms.

For those with cancer, do not let your marriage suffer.  I know you are sick, but it takes such little effort to put your arms around your spouse and say "I love you."  That is my advice.  If any readers have advice please feel free to contact me.  I do not know what to do and this is a horrible feeling.  I am open for any suggestions.  Who knows, maybe she will read this and realize I do love her so dearly and make an effort to contact me.  Odder things have happened!  But I do not think I should hold my breath on it.