I was laying in bed last night trying to get to sleep, when I started thinking about how our youngest daughter seems to remember things from when she was two years old, or has she heard us speak of different  circumstances and then thinks that they are her own memories? 

I know for a fact that the first memory I have is from 1968, I was 5 years old living on 7th street in Grover City, Ca. (renamed Grover Beach to increase tourism...I guess it worked?)  Anyway, our oldest daughter seems to remember when she was four years old going to the thrift shop with my mom.   She also remembers being in a church play around the same age.  Okay, realistic, but having a memory at two?  Is this possible? 

I don't know about you, but my childhood was not the most positive, but then again, who had the perfect childhood?   I know I blocked out alot of yelling but also remember alot of it too, but therapy has helped me to be "okay".......at least that's what I tell myself! 

So, I would like to ask all of you readers:  At what age do you honestly remember something significant?   Be honest now, is it your memory or are you borrowing it?

I tell our daughters that the only person they have full control of is themselves and that the choices that they make will ultimately have consequences, they may not see those consequences right away, but will in time...............In God's time.

I am turning 45 years old in 3 months and 3 weeks, just in case somebody wanted to send me a card, and I am finally at a point in my life where I am enjoying learning from my mishaps...and Lord knows I have many! 

Every single day I learn something new about life and my desire is to share my new found life experiences/moments with my family...it's just getting their full attention that I need help with.  :0) 

I blog here at the Northwest Voice to do the same thing...hopefully people see that whatever I write, I write with all of my heart and do not do so just to be typing, but to share a part of myself with people that I may never meet and maybe, just maybe, something I write will help somebody with a similar situation or make somebody say, "Hmmm, I never thought of it that way!" or maybe give you a chuckle....whatever the case, I am enjoying my time..........In His time.................

It's already July 15, 2008..............where has the summer gone?  Three weeks of summer school, 5 days of vacation bible school, 10 days of vacation with my family, 5 days of church camp...upcoming:  5+ days of performing arts camp at our church and finally...another vacation with my family for a full 7 days............much needed!

I feel extremely drained, physically, emotionally and for some reason spiritually.  Our Senior Pastor of Christ Church of the Valley, Michael Foutz, preached on "religion" and the perils of churches focusing too much on being religious rather than having the personal relationship with God.  That has been heavy on my heart for many months! 

I want so  badly to live my life according to how God wants me to live and I feel like I have been busy with the "stuff" that is interfering with me finding a sincere inner peace.   I pray earnestly that God will show me what He wants me/our family to do, rather than what our needs are.

I will be still and wait for His calling and until then, I am going to slow down and listen....something that we believers tend to have a hard time doing.  Being busy doesn't get us closer to heaven, our hearts are what God wants, not a busy day planner.